About the Other Night pt. 2

Subject: Re: More

Date: 1/12/2004 3:10 AM Pacific Standard Time

To: ******@yahoo.com

From: k*******@aol.com

Okay, I wasn't expecting that response, but I'm glad that you enjoyed that last email. If you had been more open-minded about things, maybe we would have stayed together. In any case, I'm glad that we can be honest and upfront about everything. I was a little worried about your reaction. First things first... I know you probably think that you seduced me, but it was the other way around. I feel bad about this, but I planned for us to be alone at your place. I never invited D and C to watch a movie with us. They don't even know about what happened. Not yet anyway. I saw you admire that tight outfit when we went out shopping a few weeks ago. I knew I would look good in those short-shorts and white halter top. I remember that time you said I look good in white, because it contrasts with my dark hair and eyes. You see, I remember these things! I decided that I wouldn't wear a bra that night, and I noticed you staring. You tried not to, but you couldn't help it.

I won't embarrass you with the details (you better stop reading *now* if there's someone around your computers) but I loved every moment. I remember the surprised look on your face when I leaned over to kiss you. (btw you've always been a fantastic kisser.) Your mouth tasted so good that I knew I made the right move. When you thrust your fingers into my hair, I knew that there was no turning back. I don't know who undressed whom, but pretty soon I was sitting there wearing only my shorts. You had your shirt off, and I was running my hands over your hard chest. I think I surprised you again by straddling your lap. I knew it was a bold move, and I even surprised myself.

Should I continue? Am I getting too graphic? Let me know, hon.

Kisses,

K

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To Be Continued...

About the Other Night pt. 1

[back to the old school smut...I wrote this back in 2004 for Literotica.com. It's my take on the epistolary story.]


Subject: About the other night

Date: 1/10/2004 2:12 AM Pacific Standard Time

To: ******@yahoo.com

From: k*******@aol.com

Dear ______.

Sorry I haven't called you back or answered any of your emails. Yep, you're right...I have been avoiding you. Every time I pick up the phone to call you, I panic and I can't do it. I thought I would write you instead, since I communicate a lot better with writing. I also want to avoid the awkwardness of a real life conversation. I hope you're not reading this at work or anything like that. I'm about to spill my guts and would rather that you be alone while reading it.

Don't worry. I know you think I'm mad or upset about what happened. In your messages, you keep apologizing. Well I just want to say that I am not sorry about what happened. You shouldn't be either. I don't regret the other night at all. In fact I regret that it had not happened sooner. I don't know if you knew this, but I have still had a crush on you for the past few years. All that time that you thought I was just your ex-girlfriend/best friend, it was all a lie. Even when I was dating R., all I could do was think about you. When you went back and forth between T, I couldn't help but feel annoyed.

On second thought, maybe crush is the wrong word. From the first moment we met, I have been in lust with you. There, I said it, lol! Your body alone drives me insane. During the summers, I watch you surfing and I just want to melt in a puddle right then and there. You know that I've always had a fetish for dark eyes, and I epecially love yours.

Didn't you ever wonder why I dated guys who looked a little like you? Tan skin and smoldering eyes. I always thought about your dating preference. I wondered if you were thinking of me when you dated the next petite, dark haired girl. Ah, but that's not the point. The point is that I've been thinking of ways to seduce you for the longest time. The other night I found my chance and went for it.

Anyway I don't regret what happened and I hope you don't either. I hope this wasn't a one time thing, but if you're not ready for more, then just tell me. If you don't want us to do this again, I won't say anything more about the subject. You'll always be my best friend, and I don't want to do anything to risk that. If you want to take some time to think about it, that's fine, too.

write back soon....*hugs*

K

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To Be Continued...

The Kis Lee Way of Making Amateur Porn

or, "How to make a shaky, blurry porn clip that you'd never show to anyone else"

1. Be intoxicated: don't drink enough to knock over the camera. Drink just enough so you lose your inhibitions.
   
2. Be semi-spontaneous: "Hey, look! The camera is right by the bed. How did that get there?" You don't have to get fancy with the tri-pod. Just have a camera handy and make sure you can get it pointing at you.
3. Low lighting works: too much light and you'll get self-conscious again. Candles or a dimmer switch work best.
   
4. Pick a position that makes you look good: you can figure it out for yourself. Missionary is always a safe bet for the ladies.
   
5. Wave at the camera: optional. But it's funny when you look at the clip later. "Hey, there!"
   
6. Don't forget to turn the sound on: a silent porn clip doesn't have the same punch. It's cool, but it's not the same.
   
7. Enjoy: when you're both sober, you can take a look and discuss your first porn clip. You can discuss what works, what doesn't work, and how to improve on next time.
   

There you go. It's the easy way to make your first porn clip. You don't have to follow my advice. Try it, experiment, and have a good time. If you don't like the result, you can always destroy the evidence together. If you like the result, it's another excuse to have more porn star sex.

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different kind of milestone

In a few days, I'm turning 31. It's not the same milestone as the big 3-0, but it's still a big one. Now I'm actually a "thirty-something." When you're 30, you're just 30. Another year older and I'm another closer to middle age.

A few days ago I had a teeny tiny pity party. I hate feeling old(er). I started to miss my 20s.

I got over it.

I'm grateful for the people in my life. I have great parents. I have awesome friends. I met a wonderful guy, and I'm having the best times. Plus I'm still partying like I'm in my 20s.

Last year when I turned 30, my friends told me that this is your year to shine. I'm still shining brightly. I believe 31 will be a momentous year for me. I can just feel it. Join me for the ride.

more keyword analysis

A while back I wrote a story based on my statcounter info: keyword erotica.

I decided to take a look at my keyword info and I found this:

"i love it when my boyfriend fondles my bare boobs"

YES!! I do! How did you know?

Sorry if I got a little excited for a moment. Like every woman, I LOVE foreplay. To me, foreplay is much more than touching me to see if I'm wet. (Yes, some men think that counts as foreplay.) Foreplay is about kissing, stroking, caressing, and massaging. When done properly, foreplay can be as enjoyabe as fucking.

My very favorite part of foreplay is when a man plays with my breasts. I have really sensitive breasts and nipples. I love any kind of contact with them. I love when my nipples are sucked and teased. I love when a man pushes my breasts together and kisses them all over. I love when my nipples are pinched. I love when a man nibbles around the nipple area. I love when a man sucks one nipple while massaging the other. Double action is always fun.

I especially love "boob guys." Some men like legs, some likes butts. I'm fond of a man who pays attention to my "girls." It's one of my favorite activities ever.

To the person who found my blog through that phrase: I hope that you were able to find a guy who appreciates your breasts. If you're a guy, then I'm happy that there are guys like you out there. Breasts are sensitive areas. Don't ignore them. Worship them and she'll return the favor. Trust me on that one.

life is really good right now

If I were the old me, I'd be paranoid at this moment. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. Waiting for the dark cloud to spoil the moment.

I pushed the old me away a long time ago. I'm learning how to enjoy life and enjoy the people in my life.

Do I wish a few things were different? Sure. I wish I was making more money. I wish I could afford to buy a home within the next decade. I wish my family members were healthier.

I have to remind myself that I shouldn't get greedy. I have good family. I have great friends. I'm with someone positive and he makes me happy. The last few months have been so great. Who knows what the future may hold but the present is pretty damn good.

5:30 AM

After a late night, I took a quick shower and plopped into bed. I must have knocked out for a few minutes, because I didn't hear him take a shower.

He crawled under the covers. I smiled as I sniffed his just-out-of-the-shower scent. I tangled my legs around his. "You're warm."

He mumbled as he kissed my neck.

Exhausted from our clubbing adventure, a part of me just wanted to go to sleep. Yet, I felt my body responding to his lips and warm hands. I peeked towards the curtains. It was still dark, but I could tell that dawn would soon approach.

As I grabbed his cock, he helped me out of my pajama bottoms. Tired or not, I wanted to come just as much as he did. We could sleep afterwards.

I told him that a quickie was enough, but he wanted to make it last. He's all about pleasing me. I'm a lucky girl.

We're lucky that we have similar sex drives. Very lucky. Dawn sex is just as good as morning sex, nooner, afternoon sex, and evening sex.

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my ears are still ringing

Last night I went to a club and partied until 1:30AM. I'm not a big fan of clubs, but I love great dj's. The music was thumping, and my booty was shaking for three straight hours. My body is paying the consequence today. Even though I wore athletic shoes, my feet still hurt. My hearing is still off, but it's getting better. That's what happens when you stand right in front of the speakers.

In the last few months, I've gone out more than I had in the last few years. Sometimes I think I'm regressing to my early 20s. I want to do all the activities that I didn't get to do like clubbing, music events, and random adventures.

I'm young, and I'm having the time of my life. This year is turning out to be fantastic. I'm happy to be surrounded by such fun people. I truly am lucky.

writer-at-work

I'm working on new stuff and tinkering with old stuff. This week has been super-crazy. Like I said, June is always a busy month for me.

To occupy your time, here's one of my favorite videos from the sexy, soulful Seal:

good, bad, naughty, what?

Recently a male acquaintance asked me: "Are you a good girl?"

We weren't talking about sex, but the question had potential for a sexual undercurrent. I had to really think about my answer. Do I think of myself as a good girl? I feel like I'm too nice to be a "bad girl," but I'm too adventurous to be a "good girl." Finally I told him: "I'm a nice girl, but I don't know if I'm a good girl."

It made me think of how people define "good girl" vs. "bad girl." When I think good girl, I think of someone who's pure, a bit naive, mostly innocent...maybe conservative in bed with a prudish side. When I think of a "bad girl," I see a vixen with a cigarette in one hand and a shot glass in the other. A bit of a wild streak and a definite edge to her.

In that context, I had to think about how people view me. On the surface, I look like a good girl. Guys tell me that all the time. I think it's my "look." It's the trendy glasses, the fact that I'm usually in a t-shirt and jeans, maybe my laid-back attitude. When some guys get to know me better, they are convinced that I'm a "bad girl." Maybe it's the sarcastic streak, my wild side, my tendency to be sexually adventurous.

Yes, I love sex. Does that automatically put me into "bad girl" category? Is it okay for a "good girl" to get raunchy and nasty between the sheets? Can you be a little bit of both?

I guess I'm both. I'm a good girl with bad girl tendencies. Or maybe it's the other way around. as I told my friend, I'm just complicated. Maybe someone like me defies categories.

June

First day of June...my favorite month, my birthday month.

It's been a year and a half since I started this writing thing. It's been about a year since I published my first erotica piece. I'm not rolling in dough, but I like what I do. Some days I tell myself that I can even make a living at this...some day. At least the possibility is there.

It's almost been a year since I got out of an old relationship. I'm dating now, but I'm not sure I'm ready for a new relationship yet.

It's almost been a year since I turned the big 3-0. Soon I'll be the big 3-1. It doesn't have the same kind of ring, but it means that I'm closer to middle-age. Lovely. Well, life is what you make of it, and I'm having a blast.

In a few weeks I'll be another year older. I'm still doing this freelance writing thing. I'm enjoying the times I have with friends and loved ones. I'm enjoying each moment at a time. If you think about it, that's what life is all about. Those precious happy moments that come between the mundane realities of every day life. Live on.