Never kissed a girl
This weekend I went to a huge music festival in downtown LA. Lots of great dj's in an ultra-crowded venue. Plenty of eye candy and plenty of oglers.
I was with my lover and a few friends. As we were standing around, a cute girl walked by us. She was probably in her 20s, pretty face, slim, revealing outfit...basically every straight guy's fantasy. She looked at me and smiled. The smile lingered and she slid her hand up my bare arm. She gave me an obvious come-hither look, and I gave her a polite smile in return. I stepped aside to let her walk by and the moment passed.
My guy and his male friend looked so utterly disappointed. I'm sure they thought she was going to kiss me. Actually I thought so, too. She seemed interested, but I didn't give her an opening. I saw a lot of strangers kissing other strangers that night. My guy said if I wanted to kiss another girl, it was okay with him. I said I was sorry to ruin his lesbian fantasy, but it wasn't going to happen.
He implied I was a prude, and I took a moment to tell him how I feel. I'm very comfortable with my sexuality, and I know myself. I've had moments of curiosity about women, but I've never been attracted to a woman. Not enough to initiate physical contact. If I'm not attracted to a woman, I'm not going to kiss one. It's a simple concept, and I don't feel it's a reflection of prudishness.
I don't have a problem with straight women who experiment with their sexuality. More power to them. I do have a problem with straight women who experiment only to fulfill a boyfriend's fantasy. They kiss another woman to titillate their male counterparts. That's not me. I'm not going to change my sexual identity to please my man. I'm willing to compromise on certain things, but that's not one of them. I'm not homophobic; I'm just attracted to men (despite their flaws).
I told him how I felt, but he understood. He said a part of him was glad that I didn't. Now he knows that I'm not going to make out with some random stranger (male or female). I may be the only female I know who has never kissed a girl. A few of my friends have shared drunken kisses in the past. That's not me, and I don't feel like I'm missing out.
I was with my lover and a few friends. As we were standing around, a cute girl walked by us. She was probably in her 20s, pretty face, slim, revealing outfit...basically every straight guy's fantasy. She looked at me and smiled. The smile lingered and she slid her hand up my bare arm. She gave me an obvious come-hither look, and I gave her a polite smile in return. I stepped aside to let her walk by and the moment passed.
My guy and his male friend looked so utterly disappointed. I'm sure they thought she was going to kiss me. Actually I thought so, too. She seemed interested, but I didn't give her an opening. I saw a lot of strangers kissing other strangers that night. My guy said if I wanted to kiss another girl, it was okay with him. I said I was sorry to ruin his lesbian fantasy, but it wasn't going to happen.
He implied I was a prude, and I took a moment to tell him how I feel. I'm very comfortable with my sexuality, and I know myself. I've had moments of curiosity about women, but I've never been attracted to a woman. Not enough to initiate physical contact. If I'm not attracted to a woman, I'm not going to kiss one. It's a simple concept, and I don't feel it's a reflection of prudishness.
I don't have a problem with straight women who experiment with their sexuality. More power to them. I do have a problem with straight women who experiment only to fulfill a boyfriend's fantasy. They kiss another woman to titillate their male counterparts. That's not me. I'm not going to change my sexual identity to please my man. I'm willing to compromise on certain things, but that's not one of them. I'm not homophobic; I'm just attracted to men (despite their flaws).
I told him how I felt, but he understood. He said a part of him was glad that I didn't. Now he knows that I'm not going to make out with some random stranger (male or female). I may be the only female I know who has never kissed a girl. A few of my friends have shared drunken kisses in the past. That's not me, and I don't feel like I'm missing out.
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