wiped out

I haven't been getting enough sleep lately. I'll go to sleep around 1 am and wake up around 5. I try to go back to sleep, but I can't. I think about getting up to write, but it's too cold. So I just lay in bed and stare at the ceiling until I fall asleep around 7 or 8.

In college, I used to go through brief periods of insomnia. I hope it's not back. So far it's been less than a week, so I'm hoping my sleep schedule will get back to normal. I've had a lot on my mind lately so I'm sure that's not helping matters. I've been thinking about the big picture questions: career, success, love. All these thoughts bombard me during the day and continue at night.

In a few months, I'll be 31. I want to say that I'm happy with what I've accomplished as a 31 year old. In a way, I am but I want more. I want a more successful career. I want to be able to take a vacation this year. I want a nicer car. I want to fall in love. I'm thinking about all of these things, and the thoughts are overwhelming at times.

I'm tired, and I'm restless. I'm worried about the future. I look forward to the future. This is me at the moment.